Nef Nels: Politicians in My Panties

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Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

Text by Nef Nels, Copyright 2023

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Politicians in My Panties

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How are babies made mommy? That’s one of the first major questions that’s a child asks their parents after discovering that there is a world outside of toys and TV. A lot of mommy’s get this question when their belliy’s grow big with a baby.

But what happens if that baby is not alive or you know will soon pass away after birth? What do you tell your curious child? How do you break the news to them?

My mother had to carry a deceased baby to term because of the laws back in the seventies. She never got over it. She told me about the day he passed away. She could tell that something was wrong because he quivered and jerked all day. She said he then stopped moving and never moved again.  She went to the hospital and was told she had to carry him for over two months knowing he was not alive. She talked about the silence in the delivery room and the way he looked after being pulled out via Cesarean section.

Why do some men feel the need to torture women this much. Do they really hate us that badly?

This can’t be just about pro life. Maybe Dave Chapelle was right in his comedy special when he told the women of #metoo that the men were going to seek revenge- because they have.

I know it’s not in all states but for the states that do have these laws where politicians decide what’s best for mother and baby and not their doctors, it’s frightening. A pregnant woman is really not free any longer. She is a prisoner to the whim of an agenda that isn’t helping anyone. Especially a little boy or girl who runs to mommy’s belly and asks “mommy when is my baby brother or sister coming? And the mother must answer – I’m sorry there will not be a baby – mommy’s belly must stay big  because the men who make the laws say that it has to.

Locktober: Lyra on Lyra


Text by Lyra From London, Copyright 2023

Photography by Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

Styling by KVaughn

Hair & Makeup: Olivia Monroe

Dominatrix: Miss Joy

Lighting Assistant: Anthony Colagreco

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Lyra on Lyra

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Patrick – fucking pussy.

Alice – fucking pussy.

And what’s all this about being a sub? I could be a switch. Depends on how much tequila I’ve had before 10am. 

Alice even tried to change my name. She thought it would be funny if I was called Celia, an anagram of Alice. Talk about an ego! You have got to be fucking kidding me. When did a “Celia” ever do anything to offend anybody? Lyra is much better. 

My name comes from Orpheus’s legendary “lyre”.

And, of course, lyre sounds like liar. Works for me.

I burst into existence pretty much in parallel with Alice. As Alice alluded to, you cannot have day without night, light without darkness. I don’t flat line (well not for a long time I hope). I am the sine curve. The parabola – two standard deviations from the mean if you get the gist.

After Alice had done her sweet little photo shoot with Tony, and after we got rid of Patrick, off came those nice clothes, and then it was my turn. Alice, wrapped up in a shawl – how lovely. How feminine, like they said. But it doesn’t get your juices flowing, not like a black plastic maid’s outfit with a little bit of lace; like a bit of constraint, if you know what I mean? Alice – that sub – and chastity? I mean, honey, really? Pass me the fucking superglue.

You know it’s October 1, right? Locktober. When people challenge themselves to be locked up in chastity for a full 31 days – or whatever you can manage. Just try it boys. Give me a call on day 28, so I can laugh down the phone at you. And, you also know October 1 is Tony’s birthday, the same day, right? The day we publish.

Now there is a true visionary.

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Lyra. Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

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Of course, it’s a simple question. Am I, Lyra, actually real? Or are these just made-up words to create a story? Is this Fight Club all over again? Yes? No?

You’ll have to draw your own conclusions. But here’s the thing. There’s Patrick prancing around in NYC Central Station in his tie and sunglasses and cravat, doing his nails, and mostly, people are pretty cool with that. And he seems comfortable with it. Well done him.

And then there is Alice, and she’s looking a little pensive and nervous at the start, but slowly finds herself in those pictures. Tony teases out that more confident sense-of-self for Alice as the shoot goes on (cameras never lie when an expert is wielding them), and I have to admit it, however begrudgingly, she looks really good in that wrap-around dress. It’s just a single piece of cloth for fucks sake, held in place where the camera cannot see with grips and pegs, damn it.

The reason for Alice looking “really good” in nothing to do with Alice of course (though I would say that, wouldn’t I). It is due to the style brought to the shoot by KVaughn, who arrived with a suitcase full of the most beautiful materials as well as his signature scarves and in addition, lots of extras including rings, necklaces, and killer sunglasses. You can see some more of him in the BTS material – this section is reserved for me, so he’s not having a look in here! Anyway, we’d all like to thank him.

Where was I? Oh yes …

But she looks good. Even I fancy her. I mean I wouldn’t mind strapping on a … (Lyra, careful – Patrick and Alice).

Yeah, well, whatever. We all have a Lyra, don’t we? I can see her, hiding behind Patrick’s glasses as he looks to the sky, that twinkle in Alice’s eye as she lets that gold dress ride up a little too far. (That was me doing that actually – not Alice.)

Alice knows she wants to, but she lacks courage. I don’t. I imagine myself in a net, thrashing and spitting, angry that my own sense-of-self (as “inappropriate” as it might be), is being suppressed. And so, the pictures that they (yes – those two – Patrick and Alice) are letting Tony and I publish, are just the tip of the red-hot iceberg, dear readers. You have no idea, though I hope you can imagine.

You see, we have a problem. Anything on the Internet can be ripped out, de-contextualized, presented as something that it was never intended to be. And whilst the current cancel culture has its absolute place for people who are being hurtful, in the world of transport (from where I am led to believe, Patrick part-funds my outfits) as well as cancellations, there are reinstatements. And indeed, alterations. But Patrick (and to an extent Alice – though she just goes with the flow – ha, there I go again!) fear being ostracized. And perhaps they should. Or perhaps they/he should grow a pair, and then not put on that cage.

So, I’m censored. Isn’t life a bitch!

Lyra would love to show you everything (and I mean, everything!), but deep down, even she is nervous. Maybe. I’m Lyra and I am holding a grenade, my elegant, flirtatious fingers on the pin, playing with it, twisting it, teasing it, but for now, leaving it in place.

Oh, honey.

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The Commuter. Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

You just know I’d love to pull out that pin and toss the grenade, that sense of self-destruction bringing the most exquisite frisson. Oh, the edging. But there would be collateral damage, so much so, that it might actually take me out as well in the force of the societal explosion. And perhaps a little like Leland, Bob, and Laura in that amazing world of David Lynch’s Twin Peaks, if I’m going, then I’m taking Patrick and Alice with me. I might live on my own, but they’d be done. And everything they built could crumble and collapse about them. Like at the end of The Dice Man.

Of course, if that Tony Ward character who really “got me”, came to Lyra and said, “I hate those cropped pictures, but I get that Internet misrepresentation bit, blah blah”, and then added “Tell you what, Lyra. How about a solo show – just you, not those other two hangers-on with all their baggage. I’ll protect your anonymity. Maybe we’ll do a book – or maybe an exhibit with massive pictures of you.”, then my mind would start whirling.

I’d think of Tony’s other work, of the world of burlesque, of edgy lifestyles, of sensuality, of eroticism, of sexuality. Of the conflict between biological sex and gender, of the blurring of identify.

If you take different colored lights and mix them, sometimes the result is an intense bright diamond-white, but do the same with paint and you end up with sludge brown. But mixtures, diversity, difference – they are wonderful things. They keep the world from being stale and boring. They should be celebrated. Not ridiculed.

 “Ridicule is nothing to be scared of.”

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Angels Have Wings. Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

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But Lyra cannot exist on her own. She is part of Alice, in the same way that Alice is part of Patrick. I’m not sure Lyra and Patrick have very much in common, but they have a go-between.

Stephen King got “Lyra” in his writing. Nineteen years of digging. “I find I’m so excited I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it’s the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain.”

So, for better or worse, for now, you’ll have to make do with a few doctored images, a sub-set (do you see what I did there?) of the type of censorship that the conspiracy theorists would have you believe is around us 24/7.

And yet, here it is. Or is it. Was there ever anything more daring? Tony knows. Lyra knows. Alice knows. And, I guess, Patrick knows.

It’s been a pleasure. Tony Ward and his whole crew have our admiration and love.

I hope I’ll be back in some form, but for now – “Lyra, out”.

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About The Author:

Lyra is 56 (what, the same age as our other protagonists? No way!). If Alice is the light, then Lyra is the darkness. Patrick distances himself from Lyra, as she is nothing but trouble, and is often bang-out-of-order. She is the whole package – fuse, spark and explosive. She has no responsibility at all. Patrick and Alice are, to be fair, slightly concerned.

You will unwrap more about her when you read what she has to say about herself, though she is, of course, totally untrustworthy, so take it all with a pinch of salt.  

Bob Shell: Frustrated With ‘Ancient Aliens’

UFO illustration by artist Dean Rosenzweig
Artwork by Dean Rosenzweig, Copyright 2023

Text by Bob Shell, Copyright 2023

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Frustrated With ‘Ancient Aliens’

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I don’t watch the History Channel’s ‘Ancient Aliens’ programs very often. But I do occasionally watch when there’s nothing else on and I have nothing better to do.

I’ve spent many years of my long life researching UFOs, which are now being called AAPs, ‘Unidentified Aerial Phenomena.’ That is actually a better term, but UFO is deeply planted in our culture by now.

A couple of weeks ago ‘Ancient Aliens’ had a segment about Kenneth Arnold.  Arnold was the man who ignited the flying saucer craze of the late 1940s and -50s. On Tuesday, June 24, 1947 at 2:57 pm, he was flying his small plane in the vicinity of Mount Rainier in Washington State. He was searching for a U. S. Army Air Force C-46 transport airplane that had gone missing in the area.  He was thirty-two years old, and had flown many such search missions as a member of the Idaho Search and Rescue Flyers out of Boise, Idaho. The AAF was offering a $ 5,000 reward for finding the plane, a significant amount of money in 1947.  Arnold had collected a number of rewards for finding lost planes in the past, and was carefully searching below for the airplane.

It was a cloudless day, ideal flying conditions. As he searched, he saw a flash of light reflected on the side of his airplane by something. As he tried to account for the flash, there was a second one. When he looked in the direction the flash had come from, he saw an amazing sight. From the direction of Mount Baker to his north, a formation of bright, gleaming objects was headed toward him at phenomenal speed. Some of them left the formation, flashed in the sunlight, then returned to the formation.
When he first saw them, they were too far away to make out any detail. But they were coming toward him and he was soon able to count that there were nine of them, flying one behind the other, with a larger one in the middle. They were moving faster than any jet.

When they were close enough for him to see detail, he could see no wings or tail like any conventional aircraft had to have. They glowed with a bright bluish white light.

Using known landmarks, he calculated that the string of objects was at least five miles long. Using his watch, he calculated that they’d flown fifty miles in one minute and forty-two seconds, meaning they were traveling in excess of 1700 miles an hour, around Mach 3. In 1947, no human-built aircraft had broken the sound barrier, Mach 1.

Whatever they were, they vanished over the horizon as he watched. But, they were not saucer shaped! I have seen his drawing made that day. They were shaped like straight sided horseshoes with a truncated point in back.
So, where did the term ‘flying saucer’ come from? Arnold said they “flew like saucers when you make them skip on a lake.” Newspaper reporters created the term ‘flying saucer’ when they reported on Arnold’s sighting.
The U. S. Air Force, which was formed as a separate branch of the military coincidentally in 1947, issued a report on Arnold’s sighting, saying they did not believe a man of his “character and apparent integrity” would write a report that he saw objects “if he did not see them.”
So, why did ‘Ancient Aliens’ say that Arnold said the objects he saw were saucer shaped? I have to put it down to ignorance and sloppy research, or maybe a vested interest in having them saucer shaped to fit their mythology.

And, why didn’t they mention that the Air Force found a second witness, an elderly gold prospector, who’d seen the objects fly over him, and made the significant observation that when the objects flew over him “my compass needle went wild.” This is probably the first report of the now-familiar electromagnetic effects produced by UFOs/AAPs.

Last month,  I again caught one of their ‘new’ programs. They showed my old friend Stan Friedman in a clip without telling anyone that the clip was old. Stan has been dead for some years. They reported on Col. Philip Corso, the man at the Pentagon whose job it was to parcel out bits and pieces of the Roswell wreckage to American firms for reverse engineering, only telling them it was ‘foreign’ technology.  I had a telephone conversation with Col. Corso not long before his death. He insisted that what crashed near Roswell wasn’t a ‘spaceship,’ but a ‘time machine.’ But that, too, doesn’t fit ‘Ancient Aliens’ mythology.

Rather than aliens, Corso thought they were ‘us’ from the future, but the program never told its viewers that.  I would advise people who watch ‘Ancient Aliens’ to take those programs with a large dollop of salt. They’re fun, but not serious reporting.

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About The Author: Bob Shell is a professional photographer, author and former editor in chief of Shutterbug Magazine. He is currently serving a 35 year sentence for involuntary manslaughter for the death of Marion Franklin, one of his former models.  He is serving the 15th year of his sentence at Pocahontas State Correctional Facility, Virginia. To read additional articles by Bob Shell, link here: https://tonywarderotica.com/bob-shell-the-education-of-america/

Bob Shell: The “Education” of America

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Classroom. Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

Text by Bob Shell, Copyright 2023

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The “Education” of America

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The great writer Louis L’Amour said in his autobiography that he left school at a young age because it was interfering with his education. He lied about his age and signed on a ship’s crew. He saw the world in the merchant marine, and that real education served him in good stead when he became a writer. 

Travel — exposure to other cultures and mores is a genuine education. Yes, I didn’t drop out of high school and went on to college, but my real education came when I started traveling the world. Now, many years later, I can truthfully say I’ve visited every continent except Australia and Antarctica. I’d have visited them by now if the so-called American “justice system” hadn’t interfered with my life and education. 

Leaning is a continuing process. No one can honestly say they are “educated.” 

But, in recent years, education in the USA has taken a wrong turn, and has gone from educating to political indoctrinating. 

Yes, back in the 1960’s when I was in college, some of my instructors leaned pretty far left. Some were openly communist. But they didn’t try to force their own politics down our throats. They taught whatever they were assigned to teach, and, for the most part, left their politics at home. 

I was reminded of how much things have changed when I recently read an article in The Week, my favorite news magazine, that said that Melanie Rose Nipper, an adjunct professor at the University of Cincinnati, had given a student named Olivia Kolezyk a zero grade on a paper because Ms Kolezyk used the “outdated reference” “biological women” in the paper. Professor Nipper said she drew the line on free speech for Kolezyk “participating in a systemic harm of some kind.” 

My reaction on reading this was, “Really?” It is “participating in a systemic harm” to use the “outdated phrase” ‘biological women’ ? 

Sorry, Professor Nipper, but there are biological women. They’re human beings born with two X chromosomes. That’s not an “outdated reference,” that’s fact. I’m a biological man because I was born with one X chromosome and one Y chromosome. That’s Biology 101. That’s fact. Some people may not like that, but that does not alter its factual nature. You can’t escape basic biology! 

Recently, Liz Cheney, someone I admire very much for telling the truth at great personal risk, said that what is wrong with American politics is that we’re electing idiots. Amen to that, Liz! Apparently we’re hiring them as university professors, too. That is my opinion, which I have every right to express! 

Perhaps we’re not electing or hiring idiots, just products of the American “education system.” 

I’m housed with many young men in their 20’s, 30’s and early 40’s who graduated from highschool. Their ignorance of basic knowledge is profound. 

I had a discussion not long ago with a younger man who said the Earth couldn’t be round, because if it was, “the people on the bottom would fall off.” When I tried to explain in simplified terms about how mass generates gravitational pull, and that the Earth’s mass pulls us toward its center, he was lost. “Don’t they teach physics in your highschool these days?” I asked him. No they didn’t. 

Another thing these younger men are completely ignorant of is basic geography. Ask them to find any country on a map and they’re lost. Foreign countries are all “somewhere over there.” It’s common when we’re watching TV news for one of them to ask me, “Where’s that at?” when another country is mentioned. If I answer something like, “It’s between France and Spain,” that’s meaningless to them. These men are not stupid, in fact I’d rate them above average in intelligence in most cases, but their knowledge base is very limited. In many cases that’s why they’re in here with me. 

America is broken, my friends, and unless we fix it, we’re headed for big trouble. The young people in the rest of the world are better educated, and the dumbing down of our younger generations will surely catch up with us.

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About The Author: Bob Shell is a professional photographer, author and former editor in chief of Shutterbug Magazine. He is currently serving a 35 year sentence for involuntary manslaughter for the death of Marion Franklin, one of his former models.  He is serving the 15th year of his sentence at Pocahontas State Correctional Facility, Virginia. To read Bob Shell’s, first essay on civil war, click here: https://tonywarderotica.com/bob-shell-newly-release-government-report-says-ufo-exposure-harmful/

Gender Affirming Care: A Case for Legalization Across All States in America

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Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

Text by ChatGbt

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Edited by Tony Ward

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Gender Affirming Care: A Case for Legalization Across All States in America

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Gender affirming care refers to medical treatments and interventions that affirm and support an individual’s gender identity. It encompasses a range of procedures, including hormone therapy, surgeries, and mental health support, which can greatly alleviate gender dysphoria and promote the overall well-being of transgender individuals. In this essay, we will explore the concept of gender affirming care and argue why it should be legalized for individuals who require such care in every state across America.

Understanding Gender Affirming Care: Gender identity is a deeply personal and integral aspect of an individual’s sense of self. For transgender people, aligning their physical appearance with their gender identity is vital for their mental health and overall quality of life. Gender affirming care aims to bridge the gap between an individual’s gender identity and their physical body through various interventions.

Hormone therapy is one of the primary forms of gender affirming care. It involves the administration of hormones, such as estrogen or testosterone, to align an individual’s secondary sexual characteristics with their gender identity. This treatment can lead to significant improvements in mental health outcomes, reducing depression, anxiety, and suicidality among transgender individuals.

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Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023

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Surgical procedures, such as gender confirmation surgeries (commonly known as “top” and “bottom” surgeries), are also part of gender affirming care. These surgeries allow individuals to modify their bodies to better align with their gender identity. They can provide relief from gender dysphoria, increase self-esteem, and improve overall psychological well-being.

Legalization and Access to Care: While some states in America have recognized the importance of gender affirming care and have taken steps to ensure its availability, others still lack comprehensive laws and regulations regarding this matter. The lack of consistent access to gender affirming care can lead to severe consequences for transgender individuals, including increased mental health disparities, reduced quality of life, and even increased rates of self-harm and suicide.

Legalizing gender affirming care across all states in America is essential to ensure equal access to healthcare for all individuals, regardless of their gender identity. Denying transgender people access to necessary medical treatments not only violates their right to autonomy and self-determination but also perpetuates discrimination and marginalization. It is crucial for state legislatures to recognize the medical consensus that supports gender affirming care and enact laws that protect the rights of transgender individuals.

Critics of legalizing gender affirming care often argue that it is a matter of personal choice and that individuals should bear the financial burden themselves. However, denying coverage for these medically necessary treatments places an undue burden on transgender individuals, who often face higher rates of unemployment, discrimination, and limited access to healthcare overall. Legalization would ensure that gender affirming care is accessible through insurance coverage, Medicaid, and other public health programs, reducing financial barriers and promoting equality.

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Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2023.